the darkest hour is just before the dawn

 

The worst part of an experience or period usually happens just before things get better

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-Thomas Fuller

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 Everybody has been experiencing darkest hour whether they realize it or not

and did you know what causing it? Bad memories, negative thoughts, guilt, regrets and to me? It was all of them. All of them mixed creates a new painful memories to be remembered again. It was like an endless time loop that will never ends, happens again and again messing with my thoughts, my emotion, and my soul.

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You know what's funny about the quotes above? The fact that i'm never get to see the dawn. Maybe you'll say i have to stop feeding the negative thoughts.

when the bad memories outweigh the good ones, what am i going to have to become to stop it?

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-Barry Allen (on The Flash s03e21)

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Yap my answer is right above this, what can i say it's too much for me. I keep experiencing this darkest hour every time, every day, every hour and it's like an hour felt so slow and tough to me. And lately i'm not the one who control this body, my emotion does because i gave up, i'm scared of tomorrow, i'm scared of the next hour because i know that these feeling will come back, i know it will and it always does. So now you figured why i'm never get to see the dawn.

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Red Hood out.