There was a time when i was laying in my bed and doing nothing until memories just popped up in my head out of nowhere. What i've been through, my mistakes, my regrets and you know what hits me hard? The moment when i realized that i'm not okay and how fucked up i really am.

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Think about it life is like a list, moving from one moment to another one. And if you are lucky enough you'll end up in the best moment you could ever imagine, but if you don't? you'll end up like me, moving from one mistake to another one. The pain never ends, doesn't it?

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I have a lot of mistakes in my life, but this one? well, this one hits different. Imagine losing your good side, your foundation of life, and the only person that fully understands what you feel. And after all of this, i could just try to be happy without anyone knowing how broken i was just like always. But this time, i couldn't live the regrets. The fact that i should've done something, something better.

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If you read this, which i really hope you would. I'm sorry i really am and one thing you should know, i want to make things right. But i just need some time to fix whatever this is inside myself, that's all i ask.

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redhood out.

February 4th, 2021